skye_writer: Glowing white block text on a black background: TRON LIVES. (tron lives)
Or maybe more accurately, the problems (emphasis on the 's' there). I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about the teaser trailer for Ares (watchable here [link]), and all the little things it implies that the film will be about, but my primary issue is this: so far, all it is, is "cool". I know it's just a teaser, and that its primary function is to tease what's to come, but still.

If you watch the teaser for TRON: Legacy (watchable here on a Disney site [link], though it might not be viewable outside the US, sorry!!), there are more hints there of story and character elements than we get in the Ares teaser. The Legacy trailer gives us a semblance of a story--Kevin Flynn is missing, and his son Sam must find him in the digital world--and a little bit of character to Sam, who is clearly jaded and somewhat adrift in his life. There's at least something there to emotionally connect with, a reason to care about the film outside of its flashy digital effects.

In comparison, the only character I felt connected to in the Ares trailer was Greta Lee's character, and her few shots just show her staring in fear and running away. The voice-over dialogue from Leto's Ares and Jeff Bridges' cameo as Kevin Flynn is scant and lacks context. There's no reason to care about what they say, because we don't even know what they're talking about. The visual effects are pretty cool, but that's about the only thing the teaser offers as a reason to see this film. It's all style and no substance, and that makes me worry that the whole film is going to be the same way.

The only real story element the teaser introduces is "programs are invading the real world", which itself implies that programs want to invade reality. It portrays programs as a mindless invading force, which is a far cry how they have been portrayed in the previous films.

(On that note, I want to mention this: some of the casting announcements for Ares early on included a mini-synopsis that talked about Leto's Ares character being a "sentient program", which is utterly baffling for anyone familiar with the franchise. I will note that said mini-synopsis has apparently vanished from all those casting announcements, but I distinctly remember it being there, and I wonder if Disney made Variety, et al, remove it from their articles because it revealed too much about the film.)

Every piece of TRON media up to this point has portrayed all programs as sentient, all the way back to the original 1982 film. In TRON, Sark expresses doubts about the MCP's plans; Tron grieves the loss of Ram and Flynn; in a deleted scene, Yori has a secret apartment that she's decorated herself. Legacy and the animated series Uprising do the same thing--Zuse in Legacy goes from helping Isos to collaborating with Clu, and every character in Uprising is portrayed as a full person with their own thoughts and motivations. On the other hand, this initial teaser for Ares seems quite content to portray programs as mindless bad guys. There isn't a single program shown without red circuitry, which has been used as a shorthand for the antagonists in TRON stories ever since the '82 film, not to mention the color's villainous connotations in countless other properties.

Another worrying aspect of this teaser for me is the implication that this film will be entirely set in the real world. Everything we see is apparently set in our ordinary reality. While that's not necessarily a bad thing, it makes me feel like the writers and or the studio have completely missed the point of the whole franchise.

The point of TRON as a universe is that the Computer World, while dangerous, contains a multitude of possibilities. The Computer World is both beautiful and strange, offering a view of things like nothing on Earth. The programs that populate it are beings with their own lives, with beliefs and desires and feelings and friendships just like humans have. And it seems to me that Ares is rejecting that idea completely in favor of a tired story about the dangers of technology and "artificial" "intelligence." Which is truly the opposite of what TRON is actually about.

And I'm aware that we don't know the actual story of Ares yet--as I said, the teaser offered hardly any hint of it--but from what little info has come out, the "technology wants to invade and or supplant us" story seems like a distinct possibility. There might be a dash of a Pinocchio-type story as well--a program (Leto) "develops" "sentience" and "becomes" a "person" (scare quotes here because programs are already sentient)--but that's just a guess on my part right now.

Those are the main issues I have with Ares right now. I have wanted a TRON 3 since Legacy came out, but I've been increasingly nervous about Ares ever since it was announced. The casting of Jared Leto has not inspired confidence in me, nor has the passing-over of Bruce Boxleitner for a cameo as Tron or Alan Bradley. I want to be excited about this film--there are going to be like four female characters! two composers I like are doing the soundtrack!--but there is just too much that's keeping me on the side of trepidation. And I'm very worried I might actually be right about some of this.
skye_writer: Cropped cap of Amelie in a movie theater from the film Amelie. (watching movies)
On the one hand, it's great that I've been keeping up with those weekly writing updates! That's fabulous! On the other hand.... I kind of forgot to update here about literally anything else, which is... a Big Oops. On my part. Sorry about that.

...let's just dive right in.

Books and Reading: My last entry was on February 7, where I was worrying about finishing Ann Leckie's Ancillary Sword before it was due back on February 9. Well. I went to the silent reading event at the library the next day, and managed to read a very large chunk of the book before I had to leave. And then I went home and... finished reading the entire book! So that was nice. The library's ebook collection also had the last book of the trilogy, Ancillary Mercy, available, so I started reading that and finished it up on February 14!

After that, I dug into my next reading project of sorts: The Murderbot Diaries! Because of the upcoming TV show, they released omnibus editions of the novellas (and System Collapse, which is a short novel) in January. I bought the first two, which collect the four initial novellas that I've only had digitally, with some Xmas money. Since February 14, I have made my way through the entire series, finishing up System Collapse yesterday morning! I love these books so much; they're very comforting reads, in a way, and I really enjoy the characters and especially Murderbot's development as the series has gone along.

I'm not sure what I'm going to be reading next. I have tentatively pulled Tamora Pierce's Protector of the Small quartet off my shelf, but I haven't started it yet. I'm playing with the idea of sticking with sci-fi for right now, or else rereading Network Effect (one of the Murderbot books). I don't know, though.

(Honestly, I really need to pull all my books out of the bookcase and reshelve them. I finally got the motivation to pull down all my Neil Gaiman books and shove them in with my Harry Potters in a crate in the hall closet, so there's some sizeable gaps that need to be filled in. But... that's a project for another day, I think.)

Various Health Updates: So The Headache That Won't Stop is still an ongoing concern. At my follow-up with my PCP on February 28, she upped the beta blocker since it hasn't really been helping my high heart rate or the Headache very much. She also called in for an MRI of my brain/head, to see if anything was amiss that might be causing the Headache. I had the MRI the following Thursday, and not twenty minutes after I got home, I got the results.

It was normal. Because of fucking course it was. My PCP's note about it was "well it's normal, have a nice day", which I do not think is... sufficient, but what do I know. I probably need to get back in with her and see if there's anything else that can be done about this. I'm just. I'm so fucking tired of being in pain or just general distress (see also: the fatigue that comes and goes that's been an ongoing problem for the last several years), and then every test comes back like there's nothing wrong. Which. Yeah, fine, but the fact that I am still having problems speaks to the fact that something is obviously wrong with me!!!! UGH. I hate this!!!

Fiber Arts: I finished Sock #1 of my First Pair of Socks project on February 18! I started Sock #2 the next day, and I just finished it this morning!! I have a pair of socks! That I made myself!! I am very pleased about this!!! I still have to weave in all the ends from the various color changes, and then wash them and block them and everything but! Socks!!!! I made them!! Whee!!!

I'm not sure what I'm going to work on next, though. I have many extant projects in both knitting and crochet, alas, but picking one is so hard! I really would like to get back into crocheting on the regular--I have a couple amigurumi projects on the go right now (a wyvern that I started last year; and a unicorn I just started recently because I was bored), as well as a whole host of other projects I've set down for one reason or another. I don't know. I'll figure something out, certainly.

Fun Distractions of Various Types: On February 10, I did something I haven't done in a while: I sat down and watched an episode of a fictional TV show. The show in question was CBS's Sherlock Holmes procedural Elementary, which I had watched the first season (and some of the second) while it was still on the air, and have always intended to sit down and finish someday. By February 17, I had finished the first season, and by the 20th I made it halfway through Season 2 before life started getting in the way. (Life in this case consists of various responsibilities and other activites--looking after my nieces when they're over, watching figure skating with my mother (which I do enjoy, it just takes a LOT of time), working on my writing, reading books, and so on.) So I haven't been watching the show at such a fast clip the last few weeks. But I'm hoping I can maybe get back into it once the figure skating seasons ends, maybe? (Worlds are the last weekend of March.) It was honestly really nice, just sitting down and letting myself be absorbed by a show. I haven't done that in literal years, maybe almost a decade? (If you don't count last year's attempt to watch all of New Who, which honestly never reached binge-ish levels.) So it was a nice feeling. :)

I mentioned last update entry that my brother had bought me a video game (Portion Craft: Alchemist Simulator) that I had promptly become obsessed with. I managed to complete all the quests in the Easy mode game I was playing, which was very satisfying! I started a regular difficulty game not long after, but then I got absorbed by watching Elementary and fell off playing video games altogether. But on February 23, I noticed that Spiritfarer (a game I have hugely enjoyed playing on my Switch) was on sale on the Steam store. So... I bought it, and I have been playing it almost daily ever since. It's been fun, though some of the controls are a little difficult at times. It's a fun game, and I really enjoy the gameplay loop. I'm almost done with my first save file.

I also did something I haven't done in a while on this past Tuesday: I went to the movies! I saw Mickey 17, the new sci-fi film from director Bong Joon-ho, starring Robert Pattinson. I quite enjoyed it! Though it wasn't as outright funny as the trailers made it seem, it was still rather delightful, and the satirical elements were top-notch. I also really liked the creature designs; they were very cool-looking. And Pattinson was amazing in his dual roles; I've enjoyed watching his career trajectory after the Twilight movies, and this was another great performance from him. But yeah. I went to the movies! I had a good time!! I need to do this more often, but there are so rarely films I actually want to see coming out...

I think that's about everything that I've been up to? More or less? Thank you all for reading this novel of a post.

Hope you all are doing well, as ever. Best wishes to you all. :)
skye_writer: Cropped screencap of a very unamused Megara, from Disney's Hercules (1997). (oh gods)
I mean, on paper I've had a pretty good week? I've made a lot of progress on the big blanket for my niece. I've exercised for 15 minutes every day, which certainly isn't nothing. I watched a movie for the first time in like a month.

(Movie in question: Spider-man: Into the Spider-verse. Which is STILL so good and honestly Disney WISHES they could make an animated movie half as inventive--and I say that as a dyed-in-the-wool Disney fan! Spider-verse is a visually arresting combination of the best parts of CGI and hand-drawn animation and I cannot wait until the sequel comes out.)

I am just. Very tired. All of a sudden. (Well. Not that sudden. It's that Time of Month again, so of course I'm tired.)

I have officially Started Gardening for 2020. My dad went to Lowe's this morning and got everything for my patio planters. We've got two varieties of tomatoes (Big Boy and Early Girl) and then I've started zucchini from seed in the hope of stopping the squash bug scourge this year. I have also planted radishes with the zucchini because apparently they can help prevent squash bugs. Other factors: I'm hoping that not having a vine squash like pumpkins growing near the zucchini will help. My dad made stilts for my planters last year, so there's no danger of the zucchini leaves touching the ground. I am going to be vigilant as FUCK about this, because dammit I want zucchini all summer long.

My dad also got watermelon and pumpkin seeds to plant down by the creek at the back of our property, and I guess I'll be in charge of those as well, I don't know. They're going to be open to squash bugs, though, so... maybe we'll plant the rest of the radish seeds down there as well? I don't know. I did go for a walk this afternoon and the ground back there is basically not grassy at all--there's just some clover over dirt, so it shouldn't be hard to get seeds started there.

I'm continuing with the Sanvello app on my phone. I've done a few meditations and they've seemed to help, which is better than nothing. The little health tracker has also been pretty handy for making sure I do various things every day, like (oh hey) exercising. Also drinking more water and taking my meds (not that I was having trouble with meds before, but). So that's been nice, I guess. I'm sure my therapist will be proud that I took initiative and starting working to get better for once.

My younger niece's fourth birthday was yesterday! She isn't having a party this year because of COVID-19, but her dad came over to my sister's and they had a little family party on Thursday (since my sister works weekends at the hospital). She got some LEGOs from him, too, a big Frozen set that has seven hundred pieces. My sister brought it over here, so I guess I'm gonna help Younger Niece build it when they come over here later this afternoon. (Tbh, I'm surprised the age label on this set is just 6+; usually LEGO marks their bigger sets for an older age group. And don't worry about my niece--she's never shown any inclination towards sticking things in her mouth and she loves playing with LEGOs, not trying to eat them. ;) ) I also have my gift to give her--I bought a kids' Spirograph set off Amazon a couple weeks back. I also made a card for her using my watercolors, so hopefully she'll like that as well.

I think that's about it for right now. I am gonna make a separate post about 7 Days, 7 Stories ([community profile] getyourwordsout's challenge happening next week) here soon, but that's all the personal life stuff I can think of at the moment.
skye_writer: Cropped screencap of a very unamused Megara, from Disney's Hercules (1997). (oh gods)
I had a nice Christmas with my family. My brother and SIL have been in since Monday, and we’ve done some fun stuff, including seeing the new Star Wars. (Which I will get to in a minute.) I got some nice gifts. My cross-stitch presents went over very well. I made apple crisp that everyone liked for dessert.

And then yesterday I started getting a sore throat. And now today I feel like shit—sinus drainage and the sore throat and just a general achy malaise. And I stg if I start feeling worse and this turns out to be the flu, I will be UNHAPPY. Especially since I got my flu shot for the first time ever this year. I am already unhappy that I’m sick AGAIN when I JUST got over being sick from two weeks ago.

I also feel a little stretched thin from the last few days. Being “on” for family is exhausting sometimes. I enjoy spending time with my family, but... it starts to wear you down after a while. Maybe that’s why I got sick. Who knows.

As for Star Wars... my basic non-spoilery thought is this: I didn’t hate it, but I hate that I didn’t love it. Loved when the trio was together, but did not love... a whole bunch of stuff. And like, maybe they shouldn’t have given the final movie to a writer-director who has a known reputation for being bad at endings! And maybe they shouldn’t have sacrificed thematic cohesion at the altar of appeasing the pissy fanboys who hated TLJ! Who were probably going to hate this on principle anyway! UGH

In short: I didn’t hate it, but I’m just... I’m disappointed in it. So, so disappointed. I am probably going to see it again bc we were seated in like the second row when we went on Tuesday, and I had trouble visually processing some stuff from that close. (Also the flashing sequences were... not great from that distance. I had a headache when we got out.) And maybe once I see it again I will post some more complete thoughts on it.

Other things.... I haven’t been getting very much done the last few days, mostly because I am trying to maximize time with my brother and SIL before they go back to CO. And now I’m sick, which is also not great for productivity at all. I don’t know. I kind of want to spend all day today sleeping, because sick and tired and ugh.

I don’t know. I hope you all had a lovely holiday, or at least a nice day if you don’t celebrate Christmas.
skye_writer: Two shots of Quorra from TRON: Legacy stitched together. (quorra)
I feel like I haven't been doing anything lately. I'm not as energized as I was a few weeks ago, which is annoying, because I'd like to get things done, but they're just not happening anymore.

I got about 75% through Crazy Rich Asians before I decided I didn't want to finish it. Mostly because I was tired of reading about these horrible people being horrible to each other. I get that the author is essentially making fun of the obscenely rich, but it just wasn't clicking for me. I could see that something additionally horrible was about to happen to the heroine and I just... did not care anymore. So that's been shelved DNF on my Goodreads, and hopefully today I can start something new.

I've written a little bit, but not a whole lot. I feel like my enthusiasm for writing has run out, in a way. Hoping to write something today, but we'll see how that pans out.

On the other hand, I have thrown myself back into fiber arts with a vengeance. I mostly finished up the crochet baby blanket I've been working on off and on for most of the last year. I still need to weave in the ends, but it's done, and can be delivered once that last bit of finishing is done. It's meant to be for my brother and SIL's first child, whenever they have one.

After finishing up that project, I picked up some cross-stitch again. I got the Stardew Valley cross-stitch book for Christmas, and I bought up what I needed to stitch a portrait of one of the bachelorettes with my Christmas money. I tried making a start at the project in April, but with everything going on with my grandfather's death my heart wasn't really in it? But the last few days I've gotten quite a bit done on it, and it's really starting to come together, which is exciting.

Speaking of Stardew Valley, I started a new game yesterday, mostly because I found a cool building mod that I wanted to try out. I don't know if I'll be playing a whole lot until I get my new monitor, but I did set up some time to play co-op with a friend of mine today. So that's gonna be fun. :)

I ended up only watching two of those movies I rented. Blade Runner and Loving. Loving was really good, and I thought Blade Runner was just okay?? I watched "The Final Cut" i.e., Ridley Scott's actual director's cut (the version called the "director's cut" was actually a workprint that got released without Scott's supervision; the Final Cut was supervised by Scott). And it was... just okay, to me. I feel like the movie wasn't interested in the same things I was interested in (which was mostly the character of Rachael, the Replicant who didn't know she was a Replicant). Also I wasn't fond of the way the film used Asian culture as a shorthand to exoticize the future Los Angeles. That said, I'm interested in seeing the sequel that came out a little while ago, just to see where they take those themes of humanity in the inhuman, which is something I've always been very interested in both as a writer and a reader/moviegoer.

I have high hopes for today--I'd like to write, start reading a new book, do my chores, cross-stitch some more. Maybe watch another episode of Good Omens, now that I'm done with the movies. My mom wants me to go to a new bakery that opened in town and pick up some cupcakes (which is easier said than done; the bakery's sold out in like two hours every single day since it's opened).

So hopefully I can make all that happen. Anyway. Hope you're all doing well, as ever.
skye_writer: Edited cap of Rey from Star Wars, looking determined. (reydiant)
My head is a big jumble of things I've got to do, and I have so much trouble just picking one out and doing it. I've sort of been bouncing from thing to thing without any direction. Maybe I need to start putting to do lists in my bullet journal again. I kind of already have a to-do list, but it's basically just daily chores, not specific things I want to accomplish each day.

I finished Tempests and Slaughter yesterday. Pretty good, if a little plotless. Also I feel like I'd be a bit more invested in it if I'd actually finished Pierce's Immortals Quartet. Reading that might be a project for after I get through my library books.

In turn, I started reading Crazy Rich Asians, which is interesting enough, though I'm not fond of the author's choice of an omniscient narrator. I'm used to stories where the viewpoint stays firmly in one place for each scene, rather than jumping around constantly. But it's not enough to turn me off the book completely, and I'm already 60% through it by Kindle's reckoning, so I'll have it finished in the next day or two.

Writing-wise: I've decided not to focus on just my novel this month. I think my imagination would like a little variety, so I'll be dipping my toe in here and there throughout the month. I'm doing the Mid-Year Marathon over at [community profile] getyourwordsout, which means I've got to shoot for at least 6k-ish this month, which is the pace for my pledge. Barring any huge disaster, I should be able to do that, as long as I keep at it most days.

(Because I am a huge nerd, I thought I might take the prime-numbered days off from writing? Just to give myself a little break, and also because primes are nice and did I mention I am a nerd?)

I rented a bunch of movies that need watching. I tried watching Eighth Grade (Bo Burnham's directorial debut from last year), but it was just not pulling me in, so I gave up on it.

(Slightly related: why do all the coming of age movies about teens involve the main character lying about something to impress someone? It happened in Lady Bird, and this one too. I don't get it, and it just immediately turns me off the movie, because I know that the character will be found out and it'll end badly, and I just... I don't get it. Maybe it's because I never did shit like that? Middle school and high school were hell enough without me making things worse for myself by lying about big things like happens in these movies.)

Back to my rentals: I also have Blade Runner, It Follows, and Loving (which is about the couple behind the case Loving v. Virginia that legalized interracial marriage in the US and also it has Ruth Negga which is about 75% of my interest in it). They're due back on Wednesday, so hopefully I can get through those in time and not have to worry about a late fee.

There's just...

I don't know. So much to do. And I'm not the most effective at managing my time. I need to crack that nut at some point. But it ain't happening now.

Hope you're all doing well.
skye_writer: Cropped cap of Mako Mori from Pacific Rim. (wistful mako)
Just an update for the sake of it. Not that I've been up to much.

Still working on the Tron/Pacific Rim crossover. Haven't written anything on it today, but I've been poking away at it. I think my muse is finally running out of steam, so I don't know what's going to happen next, both with the story and with the other stories I'd like to work on. I would really like to get back to work on some of my more "important" stories (though that important is relative, of course). But this has been a fun diversion, and I'd like to see how long I can make it last.

I also rented some movies the other night. Hoping to get through most of them before they're due back on Saturday. Movies: Jumanji (the new one; it was amusing enough but not enough that I felt like watching the whole thing); Spotlight (watched it last night; VERY VERY GOOD); He Called Me Malala (documentary); Logan Lucky (Soderbergh's latest); and Scott Pilgrim vs. the World and Dredd, both of which I've seen before and love to pieces but really need to get for my collection. I might see if I can fit in a couple movies tonight or tomorrow; we'll see what happens.

Also happening tomorrow: I'm getting the Pacific Rim artbook!! I ordered it along with my younger niece's birthday present and wasn't expecting it til next week because it was backordered, but I got the shipping notification today and it said I'd be getting it tomorrow! I'm very excited; I've basically wanted this book for five years and for some reason never thought to buy it til now? I don't know. But I'm pumped about it. Can't wait to see all the cool cool concept art and stuff like that. :D

Not much going on in real life. My younger niece's birthday party is this weekend and I've been commissioned to help decorate cupcakes again. Luckily they'll be much easier than last year's design--just simple Mickey and Minnie cupcakes with a frosting swirl, mini Oreo ears, and candy bows on the Minnie cupcakes. (Last year's cupcakes were Sesame Street themed and I had to deal with SO MUCH FONDANT OH MY GOD. You can see them here on my Instagram.) Also I'll get to see my brother and SIL again, since they're coming up for the party. Looking forward to that.

Other than... all that, I'm not doing much. Hope you all reading this are doing well. :)
skye_writer: Cropped cap of Mako Mori from Pacific Rim. (wistful mako)
So it's been a few days. I've been writing. I finished a book. I caught up on Steven Universe. I rented and watched The Last Jedi twice. I watched some worlds figure skating with my mom. All in all it has been Very Nice for me.

So let's cover all that in more detail!

Writing: I have mostly been trying to plan my novel, which has mostly involved figuring out characters. I've definitely learned some new things about them in the process (or at least about my two leads), but I wish I could be figuring out what actually happens in the book itself. Right now I've got some conflict nuggets, and a few scenes I want to happen (that happened in the first NaNo drafts of this novel), but mostly nothing. I get that figuring out characters is basically the key to figuring out the plot, but I wish I could get to some plotting already.

Today I spent rewriting a scene from Chapter 10 of The Outpost, which I'm hoping to get edited/rewritten and posted by the end of the week/month. I think I managed to improve the scene a lot, so I'm quite proud of what I did. Hoping to get similar results from attacking the rest of the scenes (there are four total) tomorrow and Friday and Saturday. And then hopefully posting on Saturday as well.

Reading: The book I read was Ancillary Justice by Ann Leckie, the first of her Imperial Radch trilogy. One of the most striking things about the book is its use of gendered language--the language of the Radch, that the MC is used to speaking, has no gender. So everyone is referred to as "she", even if other indications are given as to their gender presentation. It was an intriguing way to view the book's world, and the gripping story made sure I didn't spend too much time fussing about it. And there is so much more to the book than just that narrative quirk. The main character is a person who used to be a ship, so to speak--she was one of a vast number of people networked into a ship's computer and controlled by it, until disaster struck and she was cut off from the rest of herself. The book finds her on a mission to bring down the person responsible for that disaster. I don't want to spoil too much, so I'll leave it at that, but it's a very gripping read and well worth checking out if you're into science fiction.

Steven Universe: So I watched all the episodes I'd missed, from "Dewey Wins" to "Jungle Moon", and then all the new ones that dropped on the CN site/app on Monday. I really enjoyed all of them! I'd forgotten how much I liked the show; I might have to do a rewatch soon, at least of some of my favorites. I think my favorite of the newest episodes is probably "Pool Hopping", for reasons I won't get into because spoilers. (Okay, one piece of info: KITTENS.)

The Last Jedi: Is still as good as I remember. I will have to sit down and watch it in a distraction free zone at some point. But I really enjoyed it still, and I also still can't believe that there are people who think it's the antithesis of what Star Wars is. It's different, yes, but it's a good kind of different, I think. And I know there are folks who think the casino sequence was unnecessary, but it's really absolutely vital to getting Finn's character to where he is at the end of the movie. And anyway the Canto Bight sequences are gorgeous af, so whatever.

I also watched the commentary today, with Rian Johnson. It was pretty good. You learn some fun facts about the movie, and get his perspective on the choices he made as a writer and director. So I'd recommend that if you get the BluRay.

Figure skating: So the figure skating world championships were last week. My mom managed to record most of the events, and we've been watching them off and on this week. It's been pretty good viewing, all things considered, EXCEPT. Yesterday we were watching the men's free skate. We skipped ahead to the last group, and Nathan Chen (an American who went on to win the title) was skating last. We finally get to his program, and he's doing amazing and THEN. THE RECORDING STOPS IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS PROGRAM. WHY. I tried looking it up online to no avail, but luckily we found out there's going to be a rerun of the free skate tomorrow night in the small hours, so we're taping that and since it's edited we will probably get Chen's whole program, which I want desperately to see because he landed SIX quad jumps. SIX OF THEM. And that's really amazing considering that every other skater in his group FELL multiple times for what seemed like no apparent reason. But yeah. This is a not-big-deal thing I'm making a surprisingly big deal of, OH WELL WHATEVER.

So that's all that's been going on with me of late. Hope you're all doing well! :)
skye_writer: Cropped screencap from Pacific Rim featuring Mako and Raleigh silhouetted against Gispy Danger. (pacific rim)
So I've been doing better since that last post. I'm actually doing things again, instead of just obsessing over one thing. It's a nice feeling, overall.

....it's weird, I come here with all these ideas about what to post, but when I actually sit down to do it, I can't think of anything interesting to say.

I've been writing again. Just doing 750Words (750words.com) for rambling purposes, mostly. I wrote a tiny bit on the Outpost (my TRON fic) last Saturday, and since then I've been poking at planning out a novel. I've had the idea for a while (almost ten years, actually), but actually figuring out what happens is giving me fits. Also I worry that my characters aren't complex enough and stuff like that. I have no idea what I'm doing, basically, and I don't like it.

I went out of town and visited my brother this past Thursday and Friday. Played Dungeons and Dragons with the group my brother DMs and had a lot of fun. We fought a dragon and managed to win, thank goodness. I wish I could play DnD more often, but I don't know anyone where I live who plays it (I don't know anyone at all where I live, in fact). There's a comic/gaming shop in a little town adjoining my town, but I think they mostly do Magic the Gathering and stuff like that. Meh.

My brother and I also went to see Pacific Rim Uprising yesterday. It wasn't terrible? But at the same time, it just wasn't as awesome as the first one. I feel like it misunderstood the things that made the first one work so well. It also felt like it was two different movies trying to be one movie. I feel like if they'd separated it out and just done two separate movies, it would have worked so much better. I dunno. There were some things I really liked, but it just doesn't have the same spark as the first one.

Oh well.

And now today I'm mostly hanging out. Trying to figure out how to plot this novel I want to write. Resisting the urge to write Pacific Rim fanfic. All kinds of stuff. I think I am definitely going to watch Pacific Rim at some point (I've got the soundtrack on as I write this). I need to get some medicine refilled and taken care of, so I suppose I'd better do that.

Not much else going on with me. Just taking things as they come. We'll see how it goes.
skye_writer: Edited cap of Rey from Star Wars, looking determined. (reydiant)
It's been a week, that much is certain. I feel like so much has been happening, even though not really a lot has happened at all.

I survived going to jury duty. It was more an orientation and explanation of duties than anything. I spent the whole orientation fidgeting with anxiety, which was not fun. At the end I spoke to the judge about my mental health issues, and he granted me a permanent excuse from duties. So I don't have to do anything after all, which is a Huge Relief.

I also had some mental health testing done this week, on Thursday. My therapist wanted to get a more refined diagnosis, and to see if I might fall on the autism spectrum. So I did all that over two and a half hours yesterday. The only really difficult thing was some of the logic puzzles, and also taking the MMPI again. (The MMPI is a personality inventory, where you answer true/false statements about the beliefs and feelings you hold and so on. It is also 567 questions long.)

Other than those two things, I really haven't done very much. Well, apart from going out of town to see The Shape of Water, finally. It was a beautiful dream of a movie, one I didn't want to wake up from. It left me feeling happier, lighter, enchanted. I loved it, and I want to see it again. I want to see it over and over, and discern new details from its symphony of design and story and character. What a film.

I started reading a new book: Nnedi Okorafor's Who Fears Death. I'm only a handful of chapters in, but it's a very gripping book so far. I think I might actually finish it, if I sit down and devote time to reading it.

I've been watching Doctor Who again. Starting with the Eleventh Doctor, because that's what I have on DVD/streaming, and also I just like the Eleventh Doctor more? Also also, I am still harboring the hope that I can write reviews of all the episodes from Series 5 on, like I did for Series 1-4 + the Specials. I got a (re)start on it last year, but yesterday I wrote my first review in a while, and I'm hoping to get more knocked out this week and into the future. They'll all be posted on my Wordpress blog, so if you're interested you can check them out under the "Movies, Television, and More" category in the sidebar.

I've also dived back into the Doctor Who with my writing. No fics, but I am taking my Series 1-4 + specials reviews and trying to consolidate them into a collection of essays on that particular era of Doctor Who and what I did and didn't like about it. I've just written an introduction (that will probably need some rewriting), but I'm hoping to articulate my opinions without coming across as being critical for the sake of it. There's a lot about that era I don't like--the over-the-top cheesiness mainly, but also a lot of character decisions and genuine plot holes--but I don't hate it. I can't hate it, because it's what got me into the show to begin with. I obviously kept watching for a reason, and one thing I want to do is suss those reasons out. So we'll see how it all turns out.

I am hoping to get some fiction work done today as well. The Outpost still needs work done on it, and there are a couple stories I'd like to try planning out this year, too. It's just a matter of putting the work in, and since it's basically a snow day today, I have plenty of time to get it done.

Also yes, it's a snow day today. I'm not in school or anything, but a quarter inch of ice on the roads, plus snow on top of that, makes it 100% certain that I'm not going anywhere today. I will stay cozy inside the house, thank you very much. Though I guess I'll have to get out to get the mail at some point, since I'm expecting a package of yarn today. Still, not driving anywhere, so it's a shut-in sort of day.

That's all from me, really. Hope you're all doing well, and that life is treating you all right.
skye_writer: Anna Friel as Chuck from Pusing Daisies, looking down and smiling. (happy chuck)
So several things have happened since my last entry. Go figure. Time passes, things happen, who knew that was how it worked?

Sorry I think my blood sugar is low or something because I am shaky as HELL right now and my brain is kind of bouncing all over the place.

I went to the last NaNo write in thing at the library. It went all right. The same lady running it is going to be started a new writing group in the new year and I think I'm going to go to that. Whee? I don't know what I'll be writing. But I will write something.

Speaking of writing, I am thinking about doing Get Your Words Out ([community profile] getyourwordsout ) next year? Just the 75k level because I am not stupid, but I wonder if setting up expectations for myself will lead to depression and such when I fail to live up to them.

Speaking of expectations, a week and a half ago my therapist made me agree to stop making to do lists in my bullet journal. I complied, and wouldn't you know it, I AM QUITE A BIT HAPPIER. Like I feel a vague disappointment when I don't do some things, but for the most part I am all right. I am not beating myself up about what I do "instead". I just do things. And I'm all right with it.

Back to writing: I think Get Your Words Out would be fun? And there aren't penalties for not reaching your goal or staying on pace, but the community and accountability would be nice, though. So I'm mulling it over currently.

In other news: I saw the new Star Wars. IT WAS QUITE EXCELLENT. I think I am seeing it again today with my parents and then I think I will be able to formulate thoughts on it? I know I really really liked it and haters to the left and wow what a movie and heck I can't wait to see Rian Johnson's trilogy and man oh man oh man what a good film.

Unrelated story: we are doing Christmas this coming Saturday because of crazy family stuff? Well, mostly just because my sister has to work Friday, Saturday, Sunday night this weekend, and her husband doesn't want to make his family uncomfortable about their immovable position on having their Christmas on Christmas. I feel for her, she is going to be so exhausted. Ugh. So we are trying to be nice to her and have a family breakfast instead of dinner, and open gifts right after and then she can go home and sleep. The whole thing is slightly... I don't know. It feels like a mess. But we are doing Christmas. Hooray?

Equally unrelated story: I am so excited for The Shape of Water you don't even KNOW. I hope my local theater gets it or I may scream or something I don't know. I want to see it so bad and if I have to go out of town to see it... I just. It's shaping up to be this year's awards darling (either that or it's going to fall to The Post or something like that), so why wouldn't my local theater get it??? 

I don't know what else. I am going to try to post more often, but I don't guarantee anything. 

Quitter.

Nov. 20th, 2017 08:26 am
skye_writer: Cropped screencap of Maleficent from Disney's Sleeping Beauty (1959). (Default)
So I've tentatively decided to drop out of NaNo. :-\

The biggest problem was that it was stressing me out. And then also I wasn't having any fun because I was so stressed out about being behind and not being able to catch up and not knowing what to write and so many things.

So I quit. I might still write a little through the end of the month, and update my wordcount, but... I'm probably not going to hit 50k.

I need to keep reminding myself that this is Okay.

It is Okay to take care of myself. It is Okay to quit something if I'm not enjoying it. And dammit, I won NaNo TEN YEARS IN A ROW. I am allowed to just participate and not reach 50k every year. I have literally done this every year for half my life. It is OKAY to not win every year.

So I'm trying to focus on happier things. I started playing Roller Coaster Tycoon again, because why not. And then I bought RCT Classic for my iPad and that's even more fun, because it's got nice little improvements that the original game doesn't have. (Like being able to speed up time! Which is like OH THANK GOD because it seems like time moves SO SLOWLY in the original games. IT DOES, I SWEAR IT DOES.)

I rented a bunch of movies the other night: Atomic Blonde, Colossal, Jane Eyre, and Dredd (which I've already seen, but I don't own it and it is SO GOOD). I watched Atomic Blonde already since it was due back yesterday and I liked it, but it's not... like really great? It's good, and the action scenes were pretty tight and awesome, but... like a lot of spy movies, it was confusing as heck. But Charlize Theron was great, would watch her kick ass again, etc. :)

I've also got knitting and crochet to occupy my time. I found a cute crochet flower pattern, and I'm making a lot of those to turn into keychains for this hypothetical Etsy shop I'm going to start. We'll see how all that turns out. (Honestly thinking about just waiting until next year for tax purposes and everything. I don't know.)

Not much else going on in my life? My dad inexplicably put up the Christmas tree on Saturday, which is Really Weird because we usually wait until after Thanksgiving. My parents put some ornaments on it last night, and it looks nice, it's just... weird, having it up so early. I suppose this means I can start wrapping presents, though, which will tidy up some of the mess in my room. Not a whole lot, because I literally have bags of yarn EVERYWHERE, but... a little, at least.

Anyway, that's all from me. Hope you're all doing well. :)
skye_writer: Cropped screencap of a very unamused Megara, from Disney's Hercules (1997). (oh gods)
Alternatively: Everything Happens So Much

It feels like I have done All the Things since my last post, but in reality I haven't done all that much. 

I'm hideously behind on NaNo. Well, not that hideously. Only about 5k behind if I hit 10k tonight, but it's not where I'd like to be. But I can catch up. I can do whatever I want, including working on two stories at once, because I am a NaNo veteran of 14 years and I will do whatever I damn well please. So fine, working on The Outpost and then my silly (not that silly) Doctor Who / Star Wars crossover. BECAUSE WHY NOT.

Seeing Tamora Pierce on Friday was a lot of fun. I got three books signed, and my favorite (Squire) personalized. :)

We had a big family dinner for my birthday and my mom's birthday on Saturday. Whole family got together (at least, all the parts of it that are around here), it was a nice time. I got some cool stuff for my birthday, including yarn with a cool boot cuff pattern; really neat earrings; Baby Driver on BluRay (which I feel a bit more conflicted about liking since Kevin Spacey's in it :-/ ); and an AMC gift card.

That last thing I promptly used to go to the movies with my brother and SIL. We saw Thor: Ragnarok, which was funny as hell and in general just really great. I want to see it again, because WOW. What a great time at the movies.

Also I got to see the Pacific Rim Uprising trailer on the big screen AND IT WAS SOMEHOW EVEN MORE AWESOME AND I MAY HAVE GOTTEN TEARY EYED. (like. I still can't believe this movie is happening. It didn't seem like it would, BUT THEN. Ugh. I am so happy. I hope it's good. It probably will be. But what a world that we get it at all.)

Since then it's just sort of been sailing along, with choppy seas of Not Writing and Being Tired All the Time.

So that's all from me, I guess. Until next time (which will hopefully be soon)!

Sigh.

Nov. 5th, 2017 03:54 pm
skye_writer: Cropped cap of Quorra from TRON: Legacy, looking somewhat surprised. (quorra 2)
So I haven't written anything the last couple days, because I was very understandably busy. So that's okay? But I'm still bummed about it, which I shouldn't be, and maybe I should talk about this in therapy on Wednesday!! -__-

But anyway, things:
- Saw Tamora Pierce in Nashville on Friday night. That was a lot of fun. I got three books signed--the new one, Lioness Rampant (which I bought at the bookstore because I'd been in the middle of the library's ebook copy when it expired on me, so), and my favorite, Squire. I picked Squire as the one that got personalized, too. :)

- Had my whole family together for mine and my mom's birthdays yesterday. (Mine was the 30th; Mom's was the 24th.) I got some nice things, and it's always so nice to have the family together for dinner and stuff like that.

- While my brother and SIL were in town for birthdays yesterday, we went and saw Thor Ragnarok! WHICH WAS SO GOOD AND SO MUCH FUN OMG. No spoilers, but seriously, go see it. IT IS AMAZING.

- I am still crocheting, though thanks to the wrist brace it's not hurting as much as it was last weekend. Oh crochet. I wish I knew how to quit you. :P

- As I said, NaNoWriMo is only kind of going at the moment. I just killed off a character, which kind of broke my heart because wow he turned out to be a great character (it was an OC) (reminder that I am using NaNo to finish a fanfic). I am hoping to get to 6k or 7k today, but we'll see how things actually turn out.

So that's how life is going at the moment. Will try to update more this month.
skye_writer: Cropped cap of Rey from Star Wars, looking down and to the left while smiling. (rey of sunshine)
I had a good time seeing John and Hank Green on Tuesday. It was seriously amazing to see these two guys who have thus far just lived in my computer in real life. They were both funny (particularly during their advice podcast segment), and the whole thing was really great. I'm glad I got a chance to go, and I kind of hope I get to do it again in the future. :)

(I also found out Tamora Pierce, who is basically one of the founding authors of YA as a genre, particularly YA fantasy, is going to be in Nashville on November 3. I WANT TO GO SO BAD, BUT I DO NOT WANT TO GO ALONE. UGHHHHH.) 

Yesterday was also a pretty good day. I finished up an amigurumi jellyfish I started on Tuesday [link], and went to the movies with my brother to see The Princess Bride. And then also found out that both Spirited Away and Little Shop of Horrors are returning to theaters briefly around my birthday and UGH I ALSO WANT TO SEE THEM SO BAD. So that's also a thing. UGH.

But all in all the last couple of days have been pretty good. I'm glad. :)
skye_writer: Cropped screencap from Pacific Rim featuring Mako and Raleigh silhouetted against Gispy Danger. (pacific rim)
 PACIFIC RIM  UPRISING TRAILER IS HERE AND I AM FUCKING HERE FOR IT


NEEDLESS TO SAY: I AM EXCITE

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